Monday, August 6, 2007

Remembering Wayne

To start out this about my son. He passed on October 2001. I still miss him so very much. I promise I won't write only about him but I felt I had to make my very first blog about him. This is in memory of him. He was only 30 when he died. He was over 6 ft. tall and a very handsome young man. He died peacefully in his sleep. We did not even know he had a heart problem. But I am grateful that the Lord called him home with no pain.

He love to play jokes and love to laugh. He also love to laugh as a baby. He was my parents first grandchild. My daddy never had a son so when he finally had a grandson, to him it was as good as a son. He loved that little boy so very much. He was the apple of his Pa's eyes. My dad would let him get away with everything. He was so very loved by every one. He was also a first great grandson for my grand parents. (No he was not spoiled at all)...lol. Even though he was a little spoiled he really was a good child growing up. His first word was dada. He like to climb as most little boys boys do so he had his share bumps and bruises and evens a few stitches every now & then. When I think of all the things we got through as parents till we get the kids grown, its no wonder we turn gray so early...lol...but I would not change one single thing. I am so thankful for all the memories & even every gray hair.

After I had Wayne I did not want any more children. I had him at 18 and he was 9 lbs 13 oz. After that ordeal was over I said if this is having kids I do not want any more...:~( WAY TO MUCH PAIN FOR ME!!! Well I was fine with this decision until one morning when Wayne was 7 and I took him to school. When we got to school I went to kiss him by like always and he quietly asked me if he could kiss me at home from now on. His buddys were laughing at him. THAT just CRUSHED me. He was not my baby any more. I then wanted another. When he was 8 he had a little sister.

She was the kind of baby that got every ones attention except the attention of his PA, but this still hurt Wayne very much. He was jealous. We had to work hard at keeping that from happening. They had alot of hard times as kids but they grew up to be very close. As adults I don't know which one watched after the other the most. His sister was as protective of him as he was of her.

I remember another one of Wayne's antics. This time he was older and driving. You know when you have young adults driving you are always worried about them anyway. Well one evening Wayne was late getting in from work and I figured he was messing with his car with his buddy Joe. Well sometime passed and my phone rang and it was my dad. He said I might want to come over to their house. They only lived a few blocks from me. I ask why and he said just come over. I was scared and of course I went. I got there and I see my dad and mom and my son out looking at his car. I got out of mine and walked over and from where I was still am not seeing what dad wants me to see. Dad starts telling me not to be to mad and to be glad he is OK. Still I have no Idea what is going on '~' ! !! Finally My son takes me to the other side of his car and it was smashed in all the way down from the front to the back end... The first thing I did was started crying and hugging him. Telling him I was so glad he OK. Then I ask him "Wayne, How did this happen?" He said.."Well mom, Joe and I worked a little over and when we got off we were the only ones in the parking lot. We were doing donuts and I lost control and it flipped on its side and slid across the parking lot. Oh I was so mad. I was crying and glad he was OK and mad he would be so stupid. We talked about that for several years and laughed about it.

He grew up to be a fantastic young man who believed in the Lord and loved the Lord. My mom and dad passed on before him so I know my dad is happy in Heaven with His Grandson.

The Lord gave me Wayne for 30 wonderful years and I Thank Him for that. I wish it could have been more but it was not in Gods plans. I miss him everyday. I have my good days and my bad ones but the Lord helps through it all. I am going to post some pictures of this wonderful son.

We all miss him and love him so very much.


God Bless all Who have lost a child. Trust in the Lord, He will help make the pain easier.

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